"Apeirophobia" - Kyle Loewy / by H.P. Mendoza

Apeirophobia, simply put, is an irrational fear of infinity or eternity.  People with this phobia attempt to live predictable lives.

While reading the reviews some bloggers have mentioned how Sylvia is a symbolism for how religion fools the needy. To me, Sylvia is a symbolism of all that’s wrong with the world.  Sylvia is an allegory for how politics, religion, and the media drive our emotions, oftentimes to the point of sheer hatred and havoc among the people.  Sylvia is our therapist or doctor who may or may not be looking out for our best interest.  Sylvia is a monster in a mother’s voice.  She is the person who becomes your friend and then leaves you when you need her the most.

I will admit that I am a non-believer.  Most Christians would call me Agnostic because that makes them feel better, but whatever.  Honestly, I don’t care to take on the mantle of any group.  I am me and I do everything I can to love others without religion.  As the Dalai Lama once said, “My religion is simple.  My religion is kindness.”  I do hope for some light at the end of the tunnel, it would be nice, but I’m not holding my breath.  I have always had a fear of endless darkness.  I think my fear is both religiously based and based on how violent human beings can be.  I hate violence and I fear the unpredictable.  It turns my stomach in knots to think about it.  We are all capable of the most severe brutality and it terrifies me to no end that, on a whim, someone can commit a violent atrocity.  Hearing that someone died or that someone bombed a marathon frightens the hell out of me.  I went to see the films, DeadpoolThe Boy, and Suicide Squad, with my spouse, and I kept thinking, during those films, what if some lone gunman waltzes in and mows us down.

I kept running through these thoughts in my head.  First, I’d grab my spouse, then I’d push him down screaming, and maybe I’d take a bullet that my spouse would most likely have received.  None of that happened, though, but in my mind, it was a fear all too real.  I wish the world could be more predictable and less terrifying.

(See Kyle Loewy's entire review, HERE.)